A Little Bit About Me
My life is a metamorphosis; I am ever-changing, never staying the same. I go through block-phases; sometimes I am this detached vicious shadow lurking alone, sometimes I am sunny burst of energy ricocheting from all directions, but I am always 'me'. Many times, the small things In LIFE are what make me HAPPIEST. I am untameable, and entirely indecisive. It's amazing when I can stumble upon someone who can treat me with respect, and care for me - though often times when it is offered, I stray away from the opportunity. I do not crave relationship or hookups; I find satisfaction in talking to random people as if I've known them my entire life without any trace or sign of feeling awkward. I like to observe people, and what goes around me. I belong to myself, and do not need the reassurance from any other person to make me feel complete; It is impossible to feel entirely complete, but I am content with what I know about myself.
I enjoy music, movies, dancing, as well as poetry and miscellaneous writing that means nothing and everything simultaneously. I enjoy singing, and screaming down abandoned parking lots, underneath the stars and alongside city streets while the streetlights breathe down on me. I enjoy philosophy, and talking about what most people never take the time to think about. art, design, and painting grabs my attention. I like visiting little diners during the wee hours of the morning, sipping on a cup of coffee, and thinking about life. I like to dance around with the volume of the music so loud that it drowns everything else around me out to a mere minimum. I enjoy looking at things several times, just to reassure myself of the beauty that lies underneath. I question everything, and "what if's" clutter my mouth.
The only person in life who could possibly hold me down is myself. I embrace what I do not know, and I thirst for what I cannot find on the outside. So many people indulge themselves with hate and distained for each other, because we are simply all different from one another. We are all soldier fighting the very same war. We are tens, thousands, millions, billions, trillions, yet we are one. I will try to face all of the fears that intimidate me. I will try, maybe a little too much, to live my life to the fullest. I want to breathe in everything at once, and travel across the world while accomplishing my goals and dreams without looking back. I want to be able to fall to the ground, and know that it doesn't really matter if my jeans stain green, or if my face is strewn with traces of mud; I'm on an adventures.
I LOVE when the sun creeps through my window, waking me up as if it's personally reaching out to me and saying "good morning". I love watching my shadow silhouette against the horizon, as the stars shine down upon me. I love placing my face against the subway window, watching as the worlds rolls on by. I like looking down from planes and observing the fields that ALLAH(SWT) have created. I enjoy sitting on benches alongside the streets, watching people walk on by; watching their body language, perceiving what the words that they speak on their cellular phones truly means. My thoughts are constantly racing, and when my mouth opens, it is always only a fraction of a whole meaning; fragments of eternity. I want to pretend that the childhood games I was raised upon are a reality not a fantasy. I want to pretend that when I hide in the darkest corridors, someone will always come to seek me. I want to pretend that when I scream while I'm drowning, someone will follow - even if they are blinded. In the middle of the night when I cannot sleep, I like reassuring myself that I will NEVER be ALONE.
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